UNKNOWN FEELING
An obscured feelings of sadness,anxiety,void,fear..a diversified thought... not so concrete has got my heart racing for few days..i neither have a precise words to scribble nor a wisdom to organise those hazy thoughts to an explicit presentation.. i assumed it(anonymous feelings) to be so lame for serious scrutinisation and discarded it but it never stopped troubling my heart..tried sleeping to only make it worse..stood up..walked here and there..laughed..chatted but my heart beat still echoed louder and faster than those.i got deep into my mind and ransacked all my thoughts to search the reasons but i found none..most cherished sissy out of immense love propounded it to be worries for delaying my return to college and i took no time to agree as i was yearning for the reasons for those slayer thoughts. seeking for the reasons and comprehension was the only means to unravel those smothering thought.Got back to college and was so delighted to have got no scoldings and more gratified with an expectation to fathom those jumbled grueling thoughts.got back to hostel in the evening only to be astonished seeing my drenched eyes which added yet another disappointment to my already drowning mind...next attempt to abate my wild thoughts was by intriguing myself with cheerful fun talks with my mates and joyful anas but that calmness of my mind was so transient and faded off the moment i was left alone..got a call from most caring sissy after sharing the mysterious disturbing thoughts to her, which ignited another round of waterworks from my feeble eyes..sobbed like hell and was trying hard to catch my breath..thought am gonna go crazy..'does those feelings awaits catastrophes?"hung up the phone and obviously i was far released after talking to her..
i tagged those strange feelings as homesickness but those feelings commenced even when i am enclosed by warm hearts of my beloved family...reasons are still a mystery and my misery endless..Every living creature desires a perfect environment despite its futility and am one among them..now i have a hint that it appeared from the ground of my negativities,weakness,fragility and forbidding thoughts nevertheless i know its gonna takes ages to resolve..have to restrict my thought as it breeds boundless ambiguous thoughts and leaves me whimpering and wondering..
Those are the the frequent battles of my life and still today the victory is dubious
i will keep fighting with better weapons
Almighty with unwavering faith i bow to you,
enfold this fool with your omniscience,
guide me forever....
An obscured feelings of sadness,anxiety,void,fear..a diversified thought... not so concrete has got my heart racing for few days..i neither have a precise words to scribble nor a wisdom to organise those hazy thoughts to an explicit presentation.. i assumed it(anonymous feelings) to be so lame for serious scrutinisation and discarded it but it never stopped troubling my heart..tried sleeping to only make it worse..stood up..walked here and there..laughed..chatted but my heart beat still echoed louder and faster than those.i got deep into my mind and ransacked all my thoughts to search the reasons but i found none..most cherished sissy out of immense love propounded it to be worries for delaying my return to college and i took no time to agree as i was yearning for the reasons for those slayer thoughts. seeking for the reasons and comprehension was the only means to unravel those smothering thought.Got back to college and was so delighted to have got no scoldings and more gratified with an expectation to fathom those jumbled grueling thoughts.got back to hostel in the evening only to be astonished seeing my drenched eyes which added yet another disappointment to my already drowning mind...next attempt to abate my wild thoughts was by intriguing myself with cheerful fun talks with my mates and joyful anas but that calmness of my mind was so transient and faded off the moment i was left alone..got a call from most caring sissy after sharing the mysterious disturbing thoughts to her, which ignited another round of waterworks from my feeble eyes..sobbed like hell and was trying hard to catch my breath..thought am gonna go crazy..'does those feelings awaits catastrophes?"hung up the phone and obviously i was far released after talking to her..
i tagged those strange feelings as homesickness but those feelings commenced even when i am enclosed by warm hearts of my beloved family...reasons are still a mystery and my misery endless..Every living creature desires a perfect environment despite its futility and am one among them..now i have a hint that it appeared from the ground of my negativities,weakness,fragility and forbidding thoughts nevertheless i know its gonna takes ages to resolve..have to restrict my thought as it breeds boundless ambiguous thoughts and leaves me whimpering and wondering..
Those are the the frequent battles of my life and still today the victory is dubious
i will keep fighting with better weapons
Almighty with unwavering faith i bow to you,
enfold this fool with your omniscience,
guide me forever....
If u perpetuate on walking towards a dream,your dream would turn into a reality. Go on fighting with all those frictions in your life. Don't worry too much about your life,just take care. I warrant that everything will go peacefully according to your goals. Anyway nicely written. Liked it��������
ReplyDeleteIf u perpetuate on walking towards a dream,your dream would turn into a reality. Go on fighting with all those frictions in your life. Don't worry too much about your life,just take care. I warrant that everything will go peacefully according to your goals. Anyway nicely written. Liked it��������
ReplyDeletewell written dechen, keep sharing. welcome to blogging.
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